On feeling burnt out

Something Jacques sent me last night…

“People who claim to know jackrabbits will tell you they are primarily motivated by Fear, Stupidity, and Craziness. But I have spent enough time in jack rabbit country to know that most of them lead pretty dull lives; they are bored with their daily routines: eat, fuck, sleep, hop around a bush now and then….No wonder some of them drift over the line into cheap thrills once in a while; there has to be a powerful adrenalin rush in crouching by the side of a road, waiting for the next set of headlights to come along, then streaking out of the bushes with split-second timing and making it across to the other side just inches in front of the speeding front wheels” — HST

It’s taken me a bit of time to realise – and this is not easy to write – but I’ve been burn out over the last few weeks. I just finished a long swim thinking – why do I think I’ve been suffering from burn-out and when did it happen?

Maybe it’s the two years of never having more than 3 months of runway, maybe it’s the 8 investment deals I’ve had to negotiate (actually I’ve lost count), maybe it’s a co-founder leaving, maybe it’s the general roller coaster ride, maybe it’s the two months of pain to get a UK bank account open in the Techstars time (actually – that was probably the moment).

Maybe it’s because my mind used to always be busy thinking about the startup – always pondering new creative options and solutions – and then it all dried up and I could not even read or answer emails. Even though I know what to do next and I like the plan it’s just so hard to get motivated and get going.

That’s how I know.

The book “The Hard Thing About Hard Things” really helped – and I keep thinking about this line: “Nobody cares, just win”. Nobody cares about your reasons for failing, or almost failing – just get going. Find that one way out.

Makes so much sense.

I have a plan.